Currently Listening The Fragile By Nine Inch Nails Starfuckers Inc. see related

Never drink half of a two liter of Dr. Pepper, you will act like me, erractic and weird at 3:25 am in the morning! XD  I can't stop hitting myself in the head when I listen to "Starfuckers" by NIN, it's an awesome song and I really want to beat the shit out of Draco Malfoy in a completely sexual manner, lol.  Plus, I'm kinda pissed because I cannot find some Tobias Rene music, and I doubt you'd know him because he's some state icon over here...and I want to hear one of his damn songs, but I forgot the name of it...and Limewire hates my ass!!

I gotta stay up to watch Rupert Grint on the Today show and I have to force myself to sit and watch MTV's Total Request thingy show, for I can see him again with Daniel Radcliffe.  I want Rupert so bad, you wouldn't even know!

And Harry Potter slash is the most hilarious thing in the world, Malfoy is  always into that kinky shit and gets the boys going, muawaaah!  See, he'd enjoyed me fucking him up!  I so want to beat him senseless because that is HOT.  *shivers*  I really want to hurt him...shit...lol, I'll continue reading my weird ass HP slash because I'm tweeking out without drugs or alcohols...see idiots you can have a weird freakin' high just by drinking coke/caffeine and reading about HP and waiting desperately to make out with your TV when you see Rupert!!!

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

BTW, I'm thinking about getting rid of this...this Xanga, so if anyone wants to keep in contact, you can leave a comment before I make any decisions!! 

BYE!!!

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Currently Listening Nocturnal Opera By Moi Dix Mois Mephisto Waltz see related

Family Guy

Stewie: Well, what did he say?

Brian: He said he would think about, okay so where were we?

Stewie: Oh Okay, I want to have intercourse with you uh oh ya intercourse with you

Brian: Relations

Stewie: Intercourse with you  uhhuhuh, Right

Brian: Yeah, no great that sounds good

Stewie: Good, is there a shorter word for intercourse?

Well another entry because I'm sick and bored...and I have to wait until Advent Child hashes, before I go to bed...so here I am.  Again.  Well, I kept having flashes of that song clip from Family Guy in my head when I was looking at pictures of Mana, weird huh?  Or is it normal to think: I want to have intercourse with you, when looking at Mana?

I so want to know that man's secrets...O__O  Mana-sama, you are my God of fashion, of etiquette, of musical and cultural tastes...you don't even know how I want to look up yer skirt...oops.

Anyway I had taken a few pics trying to similar Mana makeup, but not putting on the fake eyelashes due to the fact my stupid ass costume didn't come in. *sighs*  But I decided to put some pics of myself versus Mana and see who wins *no contest at all.*  MANA IS THE WINNER ALREADY!!! *worships*

MANA

VERSUS

SAMANTHA

ROUND II

FATALITY, MANA-SAMA WINS!!

Currently Listening Demon Days By Gorillaz Dare see related

I have been feeling ill for the past few days and my emotions have been on a roller coaster even longer...however, I think I may decent by Sunday, and I will be able to continue my life as usual, at it's regular pace with no extra surprises.  However, I was interested by a friend's observations; I have had a deep attraction towards someone for about two years now *let us totally disregard my attraction for someone that lasted five years, and my ongoing attraction for Shinya*  anyway, I was amazed by what this person said, but I really do not find it truthful or logical.

I was saying to this friend how this person I do fancy treats and acts towards me, which I find rather friendly and kind, but my friend seems to believe there is another reason for this, meaning she believes that this person likes me in return.  Hardly.  Of course, I am even remotely flattered if it comes off as this person likes me, however, I do not find it logical nor true, considering who I am and who this person is.  We are polar opposites, in comparison, and an unlikely pair.  I disregarded it swiftly enough, but it appears to come up in conversation more often than less...I do not understand the male race, and do not plan to any time soon, however, I am not willing to have this friend as this person if he does or not.  She must be blunt with her question, and I would prefer to fall off the planet than to face him again.

So I will leave it as is...and certainly if someone did find me remotely attractive, would they not come out and say it?  It does not necessarily mean I will accept your emotions nor cherish them, but I would at least know.  Considerably I find myself saying nay to any possibility with this person even if it made it's presence felt, and why?  I do fancy this person, but I am not ready for any of that emotional attachment, certainly not ready to have anyone in my life that will take up extra time.  And I am certainly not ready to have someone come to my door asking for me...I have horribly embarrassing family and I rather it never come to that.  Thus, I will never date until I'm on my own, way from these lunatics...or never, whatever comes first.  My death most likely.

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Currently Listening Labyrinth: From The Original Soundtrack Of The Jim Henson Film By David Bowie, Trevor Jones As The World Falls Down see related

I feel dead...I wish someone would be proud of me for once instead of tell me horrid things...I wish someone cared beyond the shadow of a doubt...I wish for one instance I would be held in his arms and feel that warmth that I so desire to feel.  I wish to be held with no prior knowledge of my past, with indifference to what I really was...I want to be someone's gem.

Alas, I will be nothing to no one...I feel contempt for many people that I should not, the people that take care of me and listen to my problems with my mental psyche, and yet I cannot help but loathe them.  I loathe them for what they are and what they have...their direction in life is set upon a smooth path and mine is unseen in the grassy plains, through the wood of unknown and gloomy death.  I have no direction, I have no map, I am lost.

My eyes well with tears, cascade off my dirtied cheeks, expansions of ugly flesh, and I cannot feel in the same instance.  I wish to feel the blade of butcher knife against scarred and marred skin, for it to eat away my worries, but I refuse myself it.  I shall not fall for my self mutilation, that jester again!  I am weary of his trickery, I understand his plan for me...I cannot hold he responsible for my pain, I hold it upon myself...as I die in my coffin like bed linens.

I cannot forget the lack of confidence in me, the lack of care for me...I am deadened by insults.

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Currently Listening Visual Audio Sensory Theater By VAST Touched see related

Alice

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I got kissed...it was weird, quick...freaky.